happy/sad

i want to create something beautiful.

woes

wish i lived someplace like america so i could buy cheap designer stuffs on ebay. i decided this after finding this blog. i love the idea of buying genuinely beautiful well made things for a pittance because someone else didn't want them anymore. sigh.

in other news, i parted ways with my boyfriend. thing is, it's okay because i've been reading enough feminist novels lately to make me feel way too empowered to even want any guys around.

mirrored

at home, reading feminist literature and doing a photo shoot.

we love miss monroe.

yes we do, and now it's on my wall too. i have a hepburn and a monroe, all i need now is a cobain and a bowie and everything will be perfect.

things are looking up.

today involved some time spent lying on the footpath of an alleyway, next to a gutter, while my friend filmed it. (we're making a movie and i had to pretend to be dead.)

chocolate rubble

it was my nephews first birthday party yesterday!

brass buttons & golden leaves

a whole day with my boy, us both wrapped in winter coats. a borrowed twin lens reflex camera, hanging around my neck. light meter frustrations. walks in the cold with hands clasped tightly.

and she was, too.

it was my friends birthday last week, and these were her presents from me. earrings that are little perched birdies, and a bow tie necklace, the pair wrapped up in a disused atlas as wrapping paper.

i'll be seventeen thank you

thursday was red velvet cupcakes and presents tied in ribbon, and i ceased to be sixteen. it was lunchtime with friends and a copious amount of sugary substances and way too many ridiculous innuendos. it was smiles and candles and cake.

clouds, concrete

went op-shopping with the boy today, we found some great stuff. it was a nice day for taking photos too.

and today

the boy i like tells me he likes me. so nice.

also this.

friendly sharks

on sunday two weeks ago, we were in wellington. my favourite city in new zealand so far i think (-:

we met up with cousins for breakfast, at the sweet mothers kitchen for good food (i had waffles). they had decorations. lots. and as you can see, the bill arrived protected by a shark. quite nice it was. then we went shopping, but that is a tale for another time.

rainwashed

yesterdays trip down to hastings through the rain.

her head was a city of paper buildings

i want more than this small town. i want bright lights, big city.

i want austere buildings with too many windows, stretching up, and i want shop windows full of colour, and their slightly scary mannequins, never mind the bitchy salesladies inside.

i want out of this small town i'm in.i want tiny side streets, with little cobbled stones, i don't care if they stink of piss, the rain will wash that away. i want badly lit little cafe's with not enough room, but antique little tea services on the tables, and sugar cubes too.

i want my own front door, with a tarnished copper door knob to match, and the rooms inside, no matter how few windows they possess. it will be my own. and i want to walk the streets of the city and feel at home.

coming up roses

these pictures are old. missing my canon, i left it at my sisters by accident. (who would ever separate themselves from their beloved camera on purpose?!)

also: feeling very grateful & fortunate for life right now. appreciate the good times right?

saturday morning hannah and i biked down to visit a not-so-nearby neighbour, to ask if we could use the house that they rent out (which is empty at the moment) for a photo shoot, but they weren't in, so we parked our bikes and jumped over some gates and i shot two rolls of film by this little stream instead. at one point i was walking through the water with my tights on, and the whole time we were both dodging the sporadically placed sheep poo. it was definitely fun though!

i'm working on a project in photography class, so i've been kinda busy developing rolls of film and working in the darkroom at school, but i like it. hopefully i'll be able to scan some pictures in and upload them here soon.

i've also been looking around this website. i'm looking for some film for my new polaroid 100 (-:

a cold weather day. i love rain and chilliness, it makes me feel so nostalgic. days like these are perfect for baking, and i made gingerbread loaf because what can be better than ginger to warm us up on cold days like this? my sister was visiting us with her little baby, and my mums friend stayed the night too lastnight; it seemed so cosy with so many people in our big old patched together house, everyone quietly breathing in the night.